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Jack the Ripper

Mon, 02 Nov 2009 05:54:52 GMT

In honor of Halloween- I have decided to put a poem I found that I wrote back in 2001. It is called "Jack".
Don't judge me too much.

This is a story of Jack the Ripper
He saw a girl and just had to rip her,
Whole body- from head to toe
Til he heard footsteps and had to go.
"Come to this room" one time he said.
He then had time to chop off her head
the cut up her face
so that it could not go back into place.
And then with many slices and cuts
he cut her open to look at her guts.
He found what he wanted, and took it out.
He then left and wandered about.
No man was put away for these crimes.
But he was (supposedly) put away for a deranged mind.
A deranged mind, of course.
No normal mind would think to do something so gross.

Happy Halloween!!

Poetry Throwback

Tue, 27 Oct 2009 23:30:51 GMT

I realize that I have not written in a while. It is amazing how time gets away from you. I will no longer make any promises as to this blog, but it is my desire to keep it up.

Here is a new thing I want to add. I found my old poetry. From high school through college. yep, nothing beats teenage poetry, right? Well, I will sort through it and maybe post some of it ;). (I now realize that I kinda have a twisted mind. My first one I found was about Jack the Ripper. Others on death, dying, or isolation. Lots of images of rain and mirrors... but I digress.)
But I will start with a humorous one.

Been working so hard
Feel like ink traces my veins
My fingers becoming pencils
I begin to speak in rhythm
My thoughts in rhyme
But all I've got to show
is this little poem of mine.

Not sure of the date on that one.

Right now I have been working on what I call "Tim Art". I am taking on a character that is an artist, so I gotta work on some art. I want to actually show her art instead of just mentioning it. I am excited about it, but I also realize that there is a reason I did not become an artist.

Another random note: any men wanting to get into acting in the Los Angeles area- let me know. We might could use you. No pay, but we make food!

Funny Quiz (yeah, I have been having writers block)

Thu, 08 Oct 2009 05:12:51 GMT

Name, please.
I feel like I just walked up to some automated counter at a bank. Legal-Melinda Brown. but you can call me Mindy

Approximate Age?
I am a twentysomething. That approximate enough?

Are you happy in your life?
What a generic question. Within my life, I do have happy moments. I am also generally happy *with* my life.

Do you feel like anything is missing? If so, what do you want?
If nothing was missing, what would drive my life? I don't really know what it is, but I do know my life is not perfect, thus I continue to pursue a better life. I don't feel any particular gaping holes, if that is what you want to know....

Do you plan on being a musician/artist/writer?
Plan on? Heck, I AM all three. My life is a work of art, period; I sing in my car and in the shower; and the post-its all over my wall and computer atest to the fact that word are written on paper by my hand.

Do you think you are artistic?
No. I know I am. ;) I am also feeling cocky tonight, just fyi.

Have you ever tried hard drugs?
Tylenol comes in hard tablet form sometimes... but in terms of illegal ones, not that I can remember.

If so, have they changed your life?
That memory loss I mentioned.... j/k

What age would you like to die?
Some age before I become nonfunctional or get dementia or no longer have living friends. Why live with a shattered (an unfixable) physical, mental, or emotional life?

Would you let your kids smoke weed?
Are you asking if I would give an illegal substance to an underage person whom I am responsible for? Think before you ask such things. Even if I was part of the legalize it movement, I am not altering the conscious state of my child.

Are you an angry person?
Why would you ask something like that? Did someone tell you to ask that? Huh! Because that was just one time, and the glass was empty and made of the sugar glass....

Do you laugh a lot, but don’t really mean it?
Wow, double question. I do laugh a lot, and only rarely do I not mean it. True laughter is a uncontrollable reaction of your body. It sounds funny to fake it.

Do you like to think you are popular?
I like to think I am. but am I, not really. I am not delusional enough to actual believe the word describes me. My friends love me, and that's all I really care about.

Describe your most terrifying dream.
Let me just say this.... the words that the "man" was yelling at me- my brain couldn't even comprehend them (but I understood them as insults and threats). And I had an overwhelming sense of doom and fear.

What band would you die to see live?
Would I die before seeing them? Because that seems pointless. Even still, no bands are that important to me.

How would you like to die?
In a shining moment of glory. One that people would talk about for years after. Like, "where you there when the girl was filming that kiss a** action scene, and decided to do it one more time for good measure. and then the rope snapped..." or something like that.
(I just love this picture; I would be in there somewhere, like swinging in on a rope shooting a lazer gun)

Would you consider yourself intelligent?
Are we talking Mensa intelligent or just smarter than your average American? Because I know I am one of those options for sure.

When was the last time you cried?
Uh, about a week or more ago. I was watching a movie at home by myself. The ending reminded me of my nephew and it was just a touching scene.

When was the last time you laughed?
I have been chuckling to myself the past hour. But I literally laughed out loud earlier while watching Party Down.

Who is your last text from?
Molly

What did it say?
“i like where this is going.... alot”

Ever had your ass kicked?
Feet have been in contact with my backside. But I have not ever really been beaten up.

What’s your middle name?
Page.

Single or taken?
...Taken reminds me of the movie. And I really don't want to be "taken" like that.
But seriously, not really single anymore.

If single, what are you looking for in someone?
Because when you are no longer single, you stop thinking about what attracts you to another person?
and I have yet to really discover my "type".

Sex or love?
Why is this an either/or question? Because I personally would not like to have one without the other.
Meaning if I had a romantic love, I would want to eventually have sex; and I wouldn't want sex without love. Thus-both!

Who is your best friend?
This can be a loaded question. I have different friends that share different parts of my life, just depending on factors like location, time of friendship, and even personality.

Why is this person your best friend?
See above

Are you moody?
I do have different moods. but they don't change rapidly.

Are you depressed?
at the moment....no.

What do you think of abortion?
I am against it. My personal opinion is that you already made your choice, and don't punish another life for your mistake.

Are you in a good mood today?
I sure was!

If not, why are you not?
.....

Are you afraid of the swine flu?
Uh, no. I think mass hysteria just promotes fear but doesn't help anything.

Are you afraid to be yourself?
What do you think?

What would you label yourself?
If I were to put myself on a shelf, I think I would be in the "awesome and fun" section. Like the toy isle!

Do you live with your parents?
nope.

How many siblings do you have?
1

Do you wear skinny jeans?
No. I actually need to get some new jeans.

Are you emo?
I do have emotions, but not the emo stereotype.

Are you aware that all emo kids look exactly the same?
This is not a personality question, more like a personal statement in form of a question. I refuse to answer.

What do you wish your name was?
You know, I like my name. It is unique enough that there are not many of us, but not so different that people don't know how to say it or spell it. And I do have a personal story with it too.

How old do you want to be when you get married?
I would love to get married in the next couple years. Don't know if it will happen, but that would be great to be married before 25.

What do you want to name your kids?
Not sure yet. I want them to have reasons behind the names.

What kind of hairstyle do you want?
a shorter, funky one, but still professional enough to get a job.

When was the last time you brushed your teeth?
at lunchtime

What are you wearing right now?
jeans and a long sleeve shirt

Say something random.
I love milkshakes. They are yummy.

What do you wear to bed?
some kind of pj bottom, or boxers, and a tshirt.

Do you read literature?
What is considered literature? I do read books, but I don't know if they are considered "literature".

Do you love horror movies?
Nope.

What’s your favorite one?
Did I not say that I don't like them?

Do you like comedies?
..... does anyone NOT like comedies? Seriously.

Are you a smoker?
No, I am not.

Do you smoke cigars/cigarillos?
I just said I don't smoke.

Do you have anger problems?
This question was already asked! Gosh! People!

Do you know someone who has a mental illness?
Yes. Well, they have imbalances of chemicals in their brain.

Have you had someone close to you die of cancer?
Yes

What do you want to be next Halloween?
We are thinking of getting a group of people as zombies and zombie killers.

What grade are you in?
I am too cool for school, sucka!! (aka, I have graduated!!!)

When do you graduate?
(did)2008

Do you talk to yourself?
As long as I don't answer....right? then it's ok?

What color are your toenails?
...clear...(I don't paint them)

Has anyone ever told you have a nice smile?
I think so.

Nice eyes?
I tell myself that every morning. (I like to flirt with myself in the morning for a ego boost)

Ever broken a bone?
Not yet. (knock on wood)

Got a black eye?
I think I have at some point.

Nose bleed?
oh yea...plenty of time.

Ever been so mad you cried?
Yes. yes I have. Let's move on to next subject.

What’s your favorite quote?
"Write a wise saying and your name will live forever." -anonymous

Are you listening to anything right now?
Just got off the phone with my mom, now I can hear my neighbors, and I am turning on pandora

What are you addicted too?
oxygen

Do you like silver hair?
On other people or on myself? and are we talking like natural grey or shiny fake silver? Because I kinda like the short silver bob wigs.

Would you ever fight a famous boxer?
Again I ask people to think before asking questions. It's like asking if I want to compete in a swim race against Phelps, or out eat Kobayashi. They would be super painful experiences.

Can you even fist fight?
I think if I were put in a position where it was fight or die, I would somehow find the strength and skills.

Do you work out?
Trying to get into a new routine now.

Are you in good physical condition?
Not bad. I think I could at least outrun a zombie til I found safe ground.

Do you get creeped out by puppets?
Matters what the puppets look like. (not really creepy) (creepy; I mean-he has no eyes!)

If you could be any celebrity for one day, who would you be?
I would love to be a celebrity. I am me everyday!

Do you have any phobias?
Not any that I know by name.

Ever been mauled by a wild animal?
Uh.... not unless you count my cousin's hamster biting my finger....

Are you an insomniac?
Not usually. But sometimes I get an idea in my head and I have to think it out, and it keeps me awake.

Are these questions pointless?
Maybe. But maybe the point is to point out things not often pointed out. To discover the hidden truths in our lives. ... or maybe they are just fun to waste some time.

Favorite color?

And I am done!!! Til next time!

Dollhouse

Mon, 05 Oct 2009 03:24:16 GMT

I know that I have many favorite tv shows right now. I have a list attached to my computer to remind me to watch the most important ones. However, there is one show that I would like to focus on today. And that show is Dollhouse.

The reason for my focus. First off- it is a fantastic show. Intelligent and edgy. Sexy and funny.
Second off- it is unfortunately getting no love from its network (Fox) and in danger of being canceled. This makes me so sad. I hate how networks run these days. Without going into a very long-worded rant, I will move on to the next section.

I believe that Dollhouse is a show worthy of air time. Unlike many of the shows just taking up space on the airwaves, it has something to say. It is not only smarter entertainment, but it is also entertaining. So, what must the loyal fans do to save their beloved programing?

I suggest that everyone make some effort to watch said program. Even if you have never heard of it before. If nothing else, do it for me. Because you love me, and want to see me happy. You may be surprised and actually like it; nay, love it. Also, if you have any say in the Fox boardrooms, or wherever they make decisions, speak up! Mention that though Dollhouse may have fewer viewers that the top shows, those viewers are extremely loyal and dedicated to the show. And those fans will pay money to buy dvd's and other merchandise (you have to speak to their wallets, because they apparently have no hearts or souls).

Why am I so strong in my desire and conviction? The show has a unique voice that is not heard anywhere else. In an age where people watch tv to have noise in the background, or something that turns their brain off; this is a show that challenges ideas of the deepest nature. What is a person? What makes them an individual? What is memory? Do humans have the right to alter anything about our lives, or the lives of others? Where do the lines of ethics run? How much would I sell both my body and 5 years of my life for?

All these questions asked not in a classroom like setting, but in sexy, exciting, and realistic realm. These people are not unlike you or me(except a little bit better looking). This does not take place far into the future, but today. And though people will say things like "that can never happen", I ask "Why not?" I think this quote is great-
"Forget morality. Imagine it’s true. Imagine this technology being used. Now, imagine it being used… on you. Everything you believe: gone. Everyone you know: strangers, maybe enemies. Every part of you, that makes you more than a walking cluster of neurons dissolved. At someone else’s whim. If that technology exists, it’ll be used. It’ll be abused. It’ll be global. And we will be over. As a species, we will cease to matter. I don’t know, maybe we should."
We think at first of only the positive such things can achieve without thinking of the evil that will happen. Evil always happens. That is why movies such as Gattaca, and the episode Epitaph One of Dollhouse are so scary, because they are more than fiction. They are what our world will come to if we continue in our path with no regard for the consequences.

And if you don't want to think while you watch TV, Dollhouse also has many scenes of half naked men and women in fancy action sequences , interesting romantic entanglements, quirky humor that is required of television these days. So go ahead to watch it with your brain off, you will still be entertained.

This video is a synopsis of all of season one (not as awesome as the whole season, but enough to get you ready to dive into season 2)

Picture

Wed, 23 Sep 2009 18:15:56 GMT

Saw this picture. There is no need for words.

Goals

Fri, 18 Sep 2009 05:06:02 GMT

...so much for them.

Actually, I have been pretty productive lately, just not with blogging or journaling or the like.
One big accomplishment is getting working on our webseries. I am officially super pumped about it, and think that if is half as good as we are envisioning, it will be awesome! I don't want to spoil anything yet, but keep an eye out.

Random thought- it is hard to find stencils these days. I didn't look extensively, but everywhere I looked.... to no avail. Also, does anyone know if you have to use special markers to write on clothing and have it not wash out? I just want to use sharpies, but I don't want to wash it and the ink get all on my other clothes.

Have I mentioned that I am super, ultra excited about Dollhouse season 2?!? Because I totally am. Every little glimpse I see or little hints to what is to come just increases my happy meter about 10 notches (not sure how many notches there are all together, but 10 is alot). For reference- seeing that I got a text from a good friend raises it about 15 notches. (so don't worry friends, you are still the best part of my life).

Speaking of TV, this week and next week are alot of tv premieres, and it has been strange to have no connection to TV Land where I live. I don't particularly problem with that, it is just a bit strange for the system. It is kinda good in that I don't waste too much time channel surfing. Instead I just web surf.... so much better....
(p.s.- Whedonesque.com is an awesome website for all things that any self-respecting Whedon fan should know)

Inception trailer

Men Who Stare at Goats (I just realized that I had been missing Ewan McGregor)

Keeping Up with the Bloggies

Wed, 09 Sep 2009 17:36:08 GMT

So, I am trying to do this blog more on a consistent basis. Who knows if that will happen, but whatever, I have a goal.

This week has been an interesting one already. Yesterday, I worked for like 12 hours. In the morning, I helped with the new employee orientation, and then after that we had a special event on the lot. From noon to about 8 yesterday, Paramount had a big event called "Get Schooled". Paramount joined with the Gates family to help promote kids going to school. At the event were a few celebs. I saw Bill and Melinda Gates, Seal and Heidi Klume, Hank Azaria, Craig Robinson, and Morgan Freeman.

I also called my IMTA director that night, and she informed me of an audition. It is actually a modeling one, for a hair show of some kind. So, here is me with fingers crossed that it will go well on Friday. (ok, so that is not me in the picture, but I like the picture)

Sweat, Smoke, and Blood

Tue, 01 Sep 2009 23:33:23 GMT

It has been very, very hot out the past week or so. In the hundreds for LA is unheard of, but somehow happening. Now, normally, I don't think I would complain so much but when you have to wear this outfit and be outside for hours in the sun....

Interesting story of the day- I was driving a cart that broke down in the middle of an intersection this morning on the way from the cart wash to the lot. (yes we drive the carts off the lot from time to time) I got some help to push it back out of the way, but we were one cart short for our group tour this morning.
The group tour was good. It was a group of elderly people from a nearby town. They were super friendly and social (well, most were). I even joked with them that I was going back with them.

And for those unaware, there are some large fires taking over small sections of Southern California. These fires are causing massive amounts of smoke. The sky was slightly overcast with all the smoke.

I have no real reason for the word Blood in the title. Just thought it would add some nice grit and power.
Wait... I remember a story of blood. (that sounds weird). I just saw an interesting ad campaign from Dexter season 2. They turned different fountains around the country into blood red geysers. This picture is just one example. I think that is a pretty cool idea. Defiantly makes a statement. And, I love that show. Think what you will, but the story line is actually genius. It is not just about a guy who goes around killing people. He is a serial killer, but the show is about why (one of the most psychologically interesting points), and how he does what he does (not just kill, but carry on a normal life while he is defiantly not normal); as well as exploring the relationships he has with those closest to him (most of which are homicide detectives).

Back to script writing!!

Personality Searching

Tue, 01 Sep 2009 04:57:40 GMT

I love Psychology. The study of why people do what they do is fascinating to me. I do have a bit of structure to how I think (somewhat anyway), and I kinda like having some groups to look at people through. Now, I usually don't like putting people in boxes, especially myself, but I find it helps explaining things easier, as well as finding fun comparisons between the groups. The groups are just some words until I can place at least one person with it. For instance, an INFP is an Idealist, someone who focuses primarily internally, but want to make the world a better place for others. This seems so general, until; I think about my friend Sophie. She is an INFP, so when I read about them, I think of her.
I am an ENFP. Since I am not the best observer of myself, I took the test (multiple times), and my friend Sophie even hypothesized that it would be me.
There are 16 total, if you want to find yours (I would love to know, if you would like to comment below).

Because I sometimes get in odd "research" moods (in quotes because I basically jump around on the topics frequently) where I get online and look up stuff for hours. While following one particularly furry bunny down it's trail, I decided to see what famous fictional characters shared my personality type. While I saw many, many characters being psychologically dissected, I only found 6 characters that people even suggested having this type (I say suggested because not everyone agrees). These 6 are - Ariel from Little Mermaid , Elizabeth Bennet from Pride and Prejudice (she was most contested) , Spongebob Squarepants , Kaylee from Firefly , Hurley from Lost , and Abby from NCIS.

Now, I am not saying that all of these are accurate (after all, they are fictional, and cannot take the test). But I think it is cool that almost all these characters I have described as some of my favorites, and have actually spent quite a bit of time comparing a few of them. I would love to say I have anything in common with them. and if we eliminate Elisabeth from the group (simply because of the intense debate I seem to have stumbled onto), I think I can show many similarities.

I think if you know at least a few of them, you can describe them as very positive, inventive people. These characters seem to genuinely love people. Even in bad situations, these characters never seem to lose the bounce in their step. They have a curious nature, and though full of energy, they often have a calming effect on everyone else around (especially in difficult situations, which most of those above seem to find themselves in). (now I feel like quoting them and using exact moments to illustrate my points, but I will refrain)

And seriously, sometimes I scare myself. I have just been thinking about some of these characters. I often think of shows and my favorite characters in them. And I have attempted to create my own character categories (located here). I believe I have also claimed my love of "heart" characters, which already included Kaylee and Hurley in the article, and I was thinking about adding Abby. No wonder I like the characters so much.

So, I could go on and on about the topic (one thing I have learned about my brain, it runs really fast on its track, and it has routes it loves) but I don't want to lose any readers in my odd connection babble that it would soon turn into. I follow the bunny trails with ease, but others..... But I suggest if you like the topic, to ask me about it (that is if you have some free time in which to chat).

Also, since my brain likes to change topics (it goes fast and long on a track, but I can't write it before it is bored and on to the next one), PICTURE TIME!!!

Yep. Goodnight!

Strange Encounters

Sat, 22 Aug 2009 22:24:18 GMT

I love this city. LA is an amazing place to live and I am happy almost everyday that I live here. Everyday is like a new mini-adventure. Or regular sized one, depending on the day.
Just the other day, I was out running some errands, when I stopped at a Carl's Jr to eat. As I was finishing up my meal, some random old guy came in and started talking to me. I know, sounds super creepy, and it was at first. But the guy just sat at his table and talked to me about how LA had changed over the years since the 50s. I sat and listened to him talk about how the city started as such a mellow city to now where there are definite "good" and "bad" sides of town.
For some reason, while listening to him, I began to feel a bit more connection to the city. Not the glamorous side or the side that movies show, but the real, human side. A side I don't experience often. Not that I don't have a personal, human connection to the city, but you know, through a point of view very different from my own.
This is my life. This is my town. I have a life here, I have a home here. And the pull of this city on my heart is one that is stronger than I have ever experienced before.